stop and go

have you ever felt like life was moving too fast and yet at the same time, the day is dragging on? well thats how today feels. i dont know if its because im looking forward to so many things, and at the same time dreading turning in homework and taking tests this week. im super excited that im turning 21. i haven't drinkin' in 2 years. i know i know, most of you probably think im crazy to stop drinking for 2 years. but it makes this birthday all the more exciting. on top of that, im getting a tattoo on wednesday. it's going to be freaking awesome. i shouldnt be spending the money on it, i dont really have the money to be spending on it right now, but im going to. why you ask? well, because i feel like i need to be doing something fun for myself. i've been down in a bit of a rut, and i haven't really felt like there was anyone i could turn to recently. even those that are supposedly supposed to be taking me out for my birthday haven't called me back. i don't even know if im going out for my birthday at this point. then my best friend, or so called at this point, is coming to california and i dont even think she cares to see me. i mean, we were on the phone earlier and spent more time beig silent and not saying anything more than we were actually talking. sad huh? well, so im going to party it up. any ladies in sd looking to party for an evening?? i gotta find a fun gay bar and go for ladies night. any one have any ideas?

The End

no this post is not the final post. it just so happens that my aunt had pasted away this last wednesday night and today is the funeral. granted she was 85 and she had lived a full life...but i still can't believe that she won't be around any longer. it makes you think about your own life and what you've done and what you're doing. sitting here in bed writing this blog makes me realize that i haven't really done much of anything recently. however, i am turning 21 at the beginning of next week, and fully plan on partying it up in san diego, maybe even l.a. if i find enough reason to travel 2 1/2 hours. well, im off to go bury my aunt and comfort my uncle. they were married for over 60 years and now he's 83 and all alone. talk about depressing.

Just the beginning

I've browsed around blogspots for quite sometime. I don't actually have any writting ability, or at least that would be considered worth reading. However, for those of you that are just as bored and intruiged by otheres thoughts and spend countless hours roaming around the internet finding things to keep you entertained as I do, well, here's another blog for you to rummage through. I must warn you though, I am quite boring, and well, I may have absolutely nothing to write about. But if you do stumble across this blog, and find some amuzement in it's content, do let me know. Then, I might find myself obligated to actually write about more interesting things to keep you guys interested.